The Prodigal


This is the journal of the Actor who played Jimmy Barclay.



Many of you may have wondered, “whatever became of that guy?”



My name is Dave Griffin.

This is my story of how a child actor, playing an iconic character on a show produced and distributed worldwide by Focus on the Family, goes from being a diehard Evangelical to a diehard Democrat.

And not just any Democrat.

I’m currently an elected Delegate to the California State Democratic Party and Executive Director of my local county party (Yolo).



How does this happen?

What are the life factors involved?



How does an adherent to the most popular religious community in America– white evangelical christianity– ultimately walk away and join the other side?



Warning: This story will involve some difficult subjects for many who read these pages.



Suicide.

Addiction.

Self Harm.

Severe Mental Illness.

The Abomination of US Health Care.

Religious hypocrisy.

Politics.



So be warned.

There will be some ugly stuff coming.



Another fair warning:

I swear a shit ton.

Like a literal fuck load of swearing.



I do this intentionally to disrupt people’s pious meter. It’s very common in Evangelical circles to clutch pearls whenever anyone says, “fuck”. This helps me weed out those who care more for surface appearances rather than the deeper integrity of the message.

My goal is to make you uncomfortable.

If it’s uncomfortable for me to write the stuff I experienced…

then you should
share
the
pain.

Also, one of the larger problems in Evangelical circles is how people will duck the truth if you drop an f-bomb…

but

they’ll

swallow

a

lie

if

you

deliver

it

with

a

smile

and

PG

language.



I will make no attempts to fake who I am on these pages.

I have hidden myself long enough.

Largely, because for a long time I’ve been encouraged to stay silent about my journey.



“…it would not be safe for your family if you were to share your story with the public.”



Those words were written to me by one of the head writers of the show I gave 10 years and half my childhood to when I asked for help to rebuild my career and life and pick myself up from the story you’re about to read.



I’ve been told to keep quiet.



And after 45 years on this planet… I’m not gonna do that anymore.



I intend to fucking speak.



And my goal is to use my voice to help tear down the institution of white evangelical christianity and expose this movement for what it actually is:

an

apocalyptic

political

cult



Lastly, I’d like to explain who the primary audience for this material is.

This project is aimed squarely at the Adventures In Odyssey fanbase who grew up listening to the show and the Adventures of a young Jimmy. Maybe you now have kids yourself and enjoy the show together.

This is for you.



This is also for my political colleagues and constituents should they wander in wondering about my past. But, y’all are secondary. I’ve got unfinished business with my Evangelicals.

And so much of the presentation of this, the language used, will be directly aimed at the white evangelical community.

It’s about to get a little churchy in these parts.

If you’re a lefty, you’re in for a surprise about my childhood affiliations.

And if you’re a white evangelical fan of Adventures in Odyssey, boy, are you REALLY in for a surprise.



Buckle up.



Pour yourself a glass of wodfamchocsod spiked with vodka… (wodfamchocsodVOD?)

Shit’s about to get real.



Oh btw…

before we go any further…

go back and listen to all 3 episodes of Aloha Oy.



Because that’s where this particular adventure begins.



Cheers.

Dave Griffin

A.K.A. Jimmy Barclay
A.K.A. Bimmy Jarclay


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24 responses to “The Prodigal”

  1. Bex Avatar
    Bex

    Okay… you had me at WodFamChocSodVod. And I think I will be making myself one tonight. Cheers you you, Bimmy Jarcley (and, more importantly, cheers to you, Dave), and to your future posts. I’ll be here reading them. 🥂

  2. Ian Chai Avatar

    Happy birthday, Dave.

  3. Michael Pere Avatar
    Michael Pere

    As a DEVOUT fan of Adventures in Odyssey growing up (always Team Jimmy-duh) who’s now very Democratic/Gay/Expose-The-Cult I couldn’t be more thrilled to stumble upon this blog! I’m so interested to read through these. Thanks for sharing your story and for the work you’re doing!

    1. dave Avatar

      Welcome Michael!

      So wonderful to have you along for the journey. I would love to know your thoughts as you read on 🙂

      Enjoy!

  4. Shelli Avatar
    Shelli

    FUCK YEAH, DAVE

    — a young, vulnerable kid who listened to cassettes of Adventures in Odyssey in rural Pennsylvania: now older, out, proud, and exvangelical.

    1. dave Avatar

      FUCK YEAH, SHELLI!

      Welcome.

      Rural Pennsylvania’s in the house!

      *places pin*

  5. Charlotte Avatar
    Charlotte

    I grew up in a very devout FOTF home, with Brio magazine as my favorite magazine from middle school through THE END of college. I cringe when I look at my upbringing and how it made me a better victim for predators. I was sincere in worshipping Jesus, but people taught me how to see red flags as beacons of God’s glory and approval. I brought up my older kids on Odyssey, of course, and they loved the Barclays the best! They listened to dozens of episodes a week because we payed for the special club. Now as teens, after we’ve all deconstructed, they’re disgusted by the messages in the later years of Odyssey. We’re all eager to read this blog and cheer you on. We’ve come through extreme domestic violence, the kids and I, and are now figuring out the strange new world of normal people.

    1. dave Avatar

      Welcome Charlotte & Kids

      I hope I can deliver a satisfying journey to all! Sounds like you’ve been through it like so many of us.

      I hope you find this to be a healing and positive experience.

      Glad to have you along for the ride

  6. Amber Avatar
    Amber

    “ I do this intentionally to disrupt people’s pious meter. “

    I love the way you put this. I tend to think that using a swear word when called for, is simply more intellectually honest.

    1. dave Avatar

      *bows*

      Thank you!

      I liked that one, too!

      And yes, this is what I tell people. It’s just more fucking honest.

      Is genocide messed up?

      Or is it fucked up?

      There is a difference between a lie and utter bullshit.

      Swear on!

  7. Andy Avatar
    Andy

    Just discovered your blog from the Focus on Your Family podcast. I loved AiO as a homeschooled, evangelical kid. I’m now an atheist, out as gay, and almost done with my divorce from my emotionally abusive marriage.

    Love your comments on saying “fuck”. I love cursing now that I’m out. It’s just delightful to let loose a well-crafted expletive. None of my friends who aren’t former Christians appreciate it like I do

    1. dave Avatar

      There is something so crystaline pure… so indescribably righteous… about being able to land a proper fuck the way it was intended.

      We were deprived of it for so fucking long

      I can’t fucking stop.

      I don’t particularly fucking want to, though.

      I’m fucked.

      Eh… fuck it.

      It’s all gonna get fucked up anyways.

  8. Keith Avatar
    Keith

    Man, the Barclays are the best family in Odyssey! I don’t know what happened yet, but i’m excited to read your story. This means nothing, but as a Christian, I’m sorry for whatever you went through. There’s good and bad everywhere, and it sucks when the good ones get hate. Here we go! Jimmy Barclays latest adventure.

    1. dave Avatar

      Welcome Keith!

      It’s a heckuva journey.

      Glad to have you along for the ride 🙂

  9. Chris Avatar
    Chris

    Just getting into this at the beginning. I’m in my early 60s, my kids are grown and out of the house, but we all used to listen to Odyssey together years ago. I’m still a Christian in some sense, not an evangelical really, not a church member, but just trying to sort out things in this crazy world. I’m interested in your story, not put off by swearing, and since I found this site by way of the “Focus On Your Own Family” podcast I’ll be listening to you there as well. Good luck in all your endeavours going forward. Lots of guts to be candid with your story as well as entering into public service.

    1. dave Avatar

      Welcome Chris!

      So lovely to have you onboarding the story the proper way 😎

      Thank you so much for reaching out and saying hello! Appreciate all who find their way into this journey and willing to put in the time and enerfgy to listen to what I have to say.

      Welcome!

  10. Jeri Avatar
    Jeri

    I’m so excited to read this! Grew up evangelical, listened to AIO, all the things. Just found out about you blog on reddit due to the death of a certain evangelical. There’s a pod cast out now titled “Dead Dob Day”. Thanks for sharing your story.

    1. dave Avatar

      Welcome Jeri!

      So wonderful to have you here along for the ride.

      Enjoy

      (What was the podcast?)

      1. Lena Avatar
        Lena

        I had to look this podcast up too, I haven’t listened to it yet but here it is.
        I found you on focus on your own family and am going down the rabbit hole of all of these podcasts. I knew my religious upbringing was fucked up but sometimes it is very hard to register it. Thanks for sharing your story and getting me started on this.

        https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/i-hate-james-dobson/id1736366398?i=1000723053978

  11. Jenn Avatar
    Jenn

    Dear Dave,
    I spent the better part of yesterday reading your story, in its entirety. And I don’t do that sort of thing. Your writing captivated me.

    As someone who was born and raised in Colorado Springs, as a Fucking Evangelical, with a narcissistic mother who had munchausens and a severe chemical imbalance, as someone whose parents had all of Dobson’s parenting books, as someone who listened to AIO, and as someone who has suffered from suicidal ideation for as long as I can remember….your story reached the depths of my soul.

    Thank you for writing this. Thank you for caring enough to take the trouble. I am so sorry for everything you went through.

    I shared this with the I Hate James Dobson podcast. I hope you don’t mind. I think so many more people need to hear your story. Those harmed by Dobson’s teachings, by AIO plot lines, (especially the Satanic Panic and how people like the West Memphis 3 suffered tremendously because of it,) by Fucking Evangelicalism, and the Evangelicals themselves.

    1. dave Avatar

      Dear Jenn,

      Thank you so much for:

      1. Taking the time to read the whole durned thang.

      2. Taking the time to reach out and share a piece of your story

      3. An epic compliment for a writer.

      I knew there had to be somebody else out there like me. That was really the heart of why I started writing.

      “I can’t be the only one this system fucked up”

      “And somebody has to speak up for those people even if it means I have to share some things I’d rather not”

      Those are some core thoughts that have been north stars for me as I dived in.

      Thank you for sticking with it. I’m so glad it was appreciated in its imperfect state.

      Thank you for reaching out and for sharing it as well. That’s all an artist can ask for.

      I’m grateful. ❤️

      1. Jenn Avatar
        Jenn

        It fucked a lot of us up. I have spent much time studying humanity, interpersonal relationships, and the harm caused by a senseless cult, and all of its tentacles.

        It causes people to police and obsess over their own thoughts. It causes us to punish ourselves, long after our parents stop punishing us. It causes us to feel constant failure and unworthiness. It causes anxious attachment disorder, due to our parents and a god who never answered us. It causes havoc in romantic relationships. It causes sexual dysfunction. It causes suicidal ideation. It strains so many of our relationships. It robs us of milestones. It causes many to fail to plan for the future, because they think it doesn’t exist. I could go on for a month about this.

        I especially want to say that suicidal ideation and mental health issues should be spoken about often. I made no bones about telling my children that’s what happened when my aunt died. I made no bones about telling them about my own struggles, my own pain, and my mistakes. I think them having this information helped them to discuss their own struggles with me. I believe having people to confide in about not feeling ok, or just wishing to die, is what takes some of the air out of it. It’s what helps us live to fight another day. Tomorrow could always be worth living, so we stick around to find out. Just in case.

        1. dave Avatar

          Do… do you wanna write the rest of this?

          Cuz I’m plum wore out and you say it all way more succinctly than I do lol

          Dayum.

          Amen.

          Hallelujah and praise Jesus you have pretty much expressed every point I was hoping to.

          It’s somewhat heartening to know that what I always assumed was a plague that nobody talked about as in fact a plague we ALL need to be talking about.

          The silence and isolation coming out of this and having so few people to ever communicate with us been the hardest part and one the goals of this was to create that community.

          Thank you so much for your words and thoughts all of them.

          1. Jenn Avatar
            Jenn

            Thank YOU, Dave. Keep going. You’ve inspired me to maybe write my own story. As the movie Hook said: To live, would be an awfully big adventure.

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